i woke up and found nothing in me

i was terrified when i woke up in the early morning. terrified by my dream. it was so real inside, is like it is happening in reality. i couldn't differentiate it with my real life anymore. maybe, my current situation is just like what i dreamt last night. i was suprise how insecure im. how do i feel deep down in my heart. uncertainty and insecurity had wrapped me up, torturing me even in the middle of the night. how long will i be able to keep my facade ??!! will it just faded away all in a sudden and push me down the edge just at that second. it so unbearable to even think of the moment... moment where all my ties are loosen and i will just fall like that. like no one else will care, like you will never care. as if it is my destination to failed and yet falling. 
after all, am all alone again.. though i tried to deny it very very very hardly. the reality still did not change.
life still goes on...
BUT...